For today’s edition of Blogtober I decided to really go for it and discuss my philosophy on religion and spirituality. I feel like I need to give a little bit of a disclaimer before we get started, I probably don’t believe what you believe, and that’s okay. I honestly don’t care what you believe, or what anyone else believes. I’m not going to try to convert you, or convince you, that what I believe is right – or that it is the only path to take.
Everything I talk about today is my opinion, and it’s not meant to tear down anyone else’s views. I will, however, discuss why I don’t fall in line with some of the major religions, and if that offends you, then feel free to troll me in the comments. I can assure you that you won’t offend me.
How I Was Raised
I grew up with a Catholic father and a Pentecostal (Assemblies of God) mother. Neither of which are regular churchgoers, though my mother attended Sunday services when I was young. My grandparents on my mother’s side were extremely religious. My grandfather was a missionary and the treasurer for our church. This meant I went to church every Sunday and attended Missionettes on Wednesday evenings. I participated in all the church pageants and plays.
When I Lost My Faith
I lost faith in Christianity very early, I think I was 4 or 5 years old when I realized it wasn’t for me. I have a very specific memory of being in Sunday school, after a grueling week at preschool, and asking how the world could have been created in 7 days if dinosaurs had lived millions of years before humans. Rather than give me anything close to an answer, I was scolded and told not to believe what they taught me in school or deny the word of god.
Not long after that, I got my first Hanson cassette tape from my cousin. Yes, I said cassette tape. This was like 1993, okay? I digress… When I proudly took my new tape to my grandmother’s house and push play, I was scolded again and told I would go to Hell if I kept listening to rock music, and that my mother was at fault for allowing me to keep such a thing.
I was a curious kid, I wanted my questions answered. I wanted to enjoy listening to music. And I never got over it. From that time forward, I went through the motions, but I never really believed. My grandparents passed when I was 6 years old, and I unenthusiastically went to church with family friends for a few years then slowly tapered off.
As I got older, I became more and more interested in other religions. What can I say, I was a curious kid. I was always interested in what other people believed, why they believed it, and how they practiced religion. So I went to church with friends. Checked out Catholic, Baptist, and Protestant churches, and I was just disillusioned with Christianity. I looked into several other major religions, and never found a real connection with them.
I had some friends who were very into Wicca, and I found solace in that group. So practiced as a solitary witch for years, and went to a few open meetings with covens as an adult. During this period I continued to study other religions, and I tend to lean towards those that are polytheistic. Now I find myself more enthusiastic about my spirituality than any one religion.
What I Believe Now
I find it difficult to believe that there is only one almighty deity that lives in the sky. I consider myself to be a strong agnostic with a well-rounded philosophy about religion and spirituality. My philosophy is that there is room in this world for both science and magic. I think that we all share a piece of the Devine within us, and I meditate to nurture that part of myself. I also believe that we have a spiritual connection to this earth and that we should treat it well. Crystals, herbs, and tarot cards all find a place in my spirituality and believe that there is a power in the cycles of the moon and the solar system.
My thoughts on the afterlife, and whether or not it exists. First and foremost, what I believe is that if you are a good person good things will come back to you. I believe in shades of grey, and that as long as you are trying you won’t be ‘punished’.
What do you think?
I’d love to get your thoughts on the topic of religion and spirituality. Let me know what you think, and if you can relate in the comments.
If you’re enjoying getting to know me better this Blogtober, then check out my Day 1 Post.